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Smitten. And paranoid

Uploaded: Wednesday, September 15th, 2010

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Friday, October 28th, 2005.

I’m really falling for Jody, and I’m pretty sure that she feels the same way about me. I can’t wait to see her at the weekend, and count down the days from Sunday onwards. But it’s making me feel paranoid and anxious. I feel so stressed over everything to do with her. I’m so scared that we’re going to split up, and yet I know that there’s nothing to suggest that’s going to happen.

Her recent trip back to the Middle East, to see her friends (and her husband) has really unsettled me.

When I’m at work, I seem to be spending all of my time looking at my phone, waiting for a text. If I send her one, I feel anxious until it arrives. Of an evening, I’m sat by the phone and the PC, waiting for Messenger to show she’s online. What’s she doing now? Is she safe?

I know that this is an irrational way to think, and I keep telling myself that I’m paranoid, so I’m really making an effort not to let it show. It would be easy for me to just give in and to keep calling and texting her, but that would probably make her think that I’m a nutter.

I know I shouldn’t be thinking like this, but I can’t help it. I feel like I’m going mad.

 

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